Thursday, October 30, 2008

I went the whole night and did not loose my ring or my phone. Then, when I get inside, I realized I left my cell in Jenn's car. And she's going to Palm Springs tomorrow. So I will have no contact with the outside world for a few days. Fantastic.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Tosha is coming soon! I can't wait to see her!

And my parents *finally* got high speed internet. They were using dial up as recently as last week. Now they have email at home and not just at work. My dad left the cutest voice mail the other day that included this gem: "Well, myspace must not be too far behind. Now we can post irrelevant pictures of ourselves." I love my family so much.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I'm glad I decided to like red wine this year.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Ummm...I totally did not mean to stay up all night.

Deal Or No Deal is so much more exciting when you are effing wasted. This dude is between $1 and $1,000,000.00! HOLY COW! WHAT WILL HAPPEN???


Dear DVR, I am so thankful for you! Three bleeps later, and the poor guy won $1.00. Stink!

P.S. Thanks, Boys, for having a wine and cheese night without the cheese.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Other than being totally out of shape and having the knees of an 80 year old, here is another reason I don't play contact sports:

Fx nose and facial laceration: head to face collision during an intercollegiate soccer game.

These are the claims I process.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I spoke with my grandma last night. She'll be 94 in January. We talked about how I can't remember what life was like before the internet and how she remembers when the TV was invented. When airplanes became commercial. Lots of wars. It's amazing how much the world has changed in her lifetime. Although I had to repeat myself a few times--not because she couldn't hear but, because she didn't remember--I am really thankful for how coherent she is.

I remember the first time I had to answer the same question twice. It was back in AZ, when Faith and I lived in the condo. I was in the kitchen. When I got off the phone with her, I sat down and cried. For a lot of reasons. I had never dealt with anything like that before. It made me sad that her mind was falling apart. I felt bad for people whose loved ones have Alzheimer's. I felt bad for being thankful that Nana didn't. I thought about what that will be like when it's my parents. Will they live long enough to start to forget? Will they live long enough to meet the guy I'm going to marry? I remember when Mem's dad died. Has it been 10 years already? Almost. She came over and went through all of the stages of grieving in about 2 hours. It was textbook and fascinating to watch, even through my heart breaking for her. I remember she was so mad that her sister was walked down the aisle, but that she'll never have that experience. Dan walked her down when it was time. Steph's dad had died the year before. So, that's something that's in the back of my mind. Two of my best friends lost their fathers, who will never get to share in the life experiences my dad always talks about.

Anyway, all that went through my mind after I hung up the phone. In the years following, I've become patient in having the same conversation four times in 20 minutes. It doesn't make me sad. Just thankful that she's still around for me to talk to. It makes me smile when she says she's proud of me.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Locked out of web interface. Cannot work. Fantastic way to start week.

Yesterday was awesome, though. Mark is staying with us occasionally when he's in town to film Over Your Head. (not listed b/c his episodes won't air til 2009) Couldn't access work yesterday, so we walked to the movie theater to watch Body of Lies. (which I really liked, though DiCaprio is a bit scrawny for a CIA operative) Walked home and ran into Drew, so we went to The Stinking Rose! Hooray for my favorite place to eat! Went to Maestro rehearsal afterwards, then came home and watched Jurassic Park with the whole house. Man, that movie is still good.

I guess because yesterday was so awesome, today had to counterbalance. Nice.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Part II of my sneakyness is at 11pm tonight. I am already incredibly nervous. My stomach keeps doing flips. I'm positive they'll figure it out tonight. Yikes!

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

I'm moving on to the next round. Details here!!!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Perhaps my best idea.

Tonight I went to support my friends in this. I have decided to crash it tomorrow. 12 people in suits took the stage. Will they notice one more? Come tomorrow night to support my possible 5 seconds on Main Stage!

Monday, October 06, 2008

This post is about to be personal. I obviously don't have a problem posting it, as that's what I'm doing. But I thought that for those of you who read this regularly, I figured I'd give you a heads up. Feel free to skip.

At the beginning of March I decided to stop having sex. This is the longest I've gone since I started at 19. (heehee: I typed 10 b/c the 9 and the 0 are right next to each other) Now, for some people, this is nothing big. But for me, it kinda is. I'm an intensely sexual person. It's not that I've slept with a lot of people (still on two hands), but when I'm with someone, it's a big focus. That's been a reason why I haven't dated much out here. It's expected, and if I was in a relationship with someone, it would be very hard to say no. Plus, my high libido has been a problem in more than one relationship. Even for the one who could keep up...it wasn't a good thing. Also, for some reason my Number is important to me. I remember when I slept with #6 I was really sad I could no longer count on one hand. Also, I don't want to sleep with everyone I date. It sort of cheapens it.

I'm working on Month 7 and I'm starting to feel the pinch. I have incredibly vivid dreams. Most of you are aware of that. When they're nightmares, it's terrifying and can haunt me for literally days. But lately my dreams have turned sexual in nature. I've woken up in the middle of the night almost in sweats. It's getting distracting. Granted, there have only been two or three, but they've been very vivid. To add to it, the past couple weeks I've started taking better care of myself. I'm back on Sugar Busters (just basically cutting refined sugar out of my diet, which was about 90% of what I ate) and am working out regularly. I've started to notice a difference in my body. This is not helping. I mean, great, I'm looking better; I'm getting healthy. But that makes me want to be naked with another person even more.

So, I suppose what I'm asking here is for support. It's only going to get worse before it gets better, especially the more in shape I get. Also, I'm 30. That's Peak Time for a woman. But this is something I want to stick to. Please keep me in your prayers, chants, thoughts, whatever. I know this sounds ridiculous, but the odds are against me and I really wanna stick to my guns.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Talked with my folks yesterday for a while. They had both taken naps during the day so they could stay up and watch the Cubs game. It didn't start til 10:30 in OH. Sadly, they lost. So, no more baseball til next season. My poor dad. Every year it's the same old story. Someday, Dad. Someday.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Celebrity Sighting # I-have-no-idea


Yeah, this has been the most awesome one to date. I was at Room 5 watching Will's set and John was there to support a girl who went two after Will. As he walked by to leave, I rubbed his arm and told him he was fantastic. He proclaimed his undying love for me and we're running off to Hawaii!! (Read: he said thanks)

I want to cry. We have been without internet since last Thursday. Which means I don't work. Which means I don't get paid. Which means I get more stressed about money than I already am. We just got back up and running yesterday afternoon. So I only have 2 full days to process my claims. This paycheck is going to be oh so tiny.

We have to track our claims on a spread sheet. The system crashed and I lost my claims. I had to go back by hand and figure out where I left off. And I told myself, hey, idiot, save your spreadsheet every 10 claims at the least! And usually I do. I just haven't been in my processing groove since everything has been so messed up. It took me forever to go back by hand and figure out what I had done. Seeing as I get paid per claim, it's very important that I get them all.

Well, what happens 10 minutes before I'm ready to log off for the day? System crashes. And what haven't I done since 11 o'clock this morning? Saved my spreadsheet.