I think I had pneumonia a couple of weeks ago. I still have a bit of a cough. And I kind of wonder if Foxy Boy got sick. But I don't want to ask him. I mean, we've spoken once since that night, and it was about business-related issues. Then he called me that evening--didn't leave a message. So I'm left wondering what the call was about. And I can't figure out what it is about him. We have so very little in common, and most of the time I feel like a 50 yr old trapped in a (now) 24 yr old body. I don't like bars. I barely drink. I don't want to date a smoker (even though I'm not quite sure if he is one). And he's a typical college kid. Not that he's young, just has different ideas about what is fun. He would get bored with me, I think. I like to talk about the future, about medical advances. The only real conversation we've had was about movies. Which is fine, but I wonder if we could get into anything deep. How do you feel about the death penalty? What are your views of god? I think I'm intrigued. By this person that I've only had a physical relationship with. I want to see if there could (have been?) anything more. I feel that I already know the answer, but want actual proof. I mean, sometimes he surprised me. So maybe I'm not giving him enough credit. Maybe we really could hang out here and watch forensic science on MSNBC. Maybe not. But I just want to know. What is it that draws us to each other time and again? Is it purely physical? I'd like to think not, but I'm not going to kid myself about it. I know that happens. I'd like to spend some time with him just hanging out. Actually getting to know him. And maybe that would be that. But maybe we'd develop an actual friendship. And spend actual non-party time together. Not looking for anything more. Just want to see. Just curious. And there's someone who I think is interested in me, but I just want to hang out. How do you tell someone you're not attracted to them without hurting his feelings? He's fun and I really enjoy our time together, but don't want it to get complicated. And I'm superconcious of my actions around him, not wanting to get into that awkward moment of please-god-don't-try-to-kiss-me. But maybe I'm reading things wrong. Maybe he isn't interested and I'm just overreacting. Maybe tae-bo will have the answers.

And OHMYGOD!!! It's 12:30 in the morning...do you have to jump everywhere you want to go?!? There is no need to try to break through my ceiling on your way to the bathroom! (Says the girl who is about to work out)