I guess I thought it would hurt more. I mean, don't get me wrong, it still hurts, but I just thought it would hurt more. So I'm surprised at myself. And kinda proud. And, amazingly, I'm at peace. It was inevitable. I was waiting for it to happen. But my reaction tonight shows that I wasn't kidding myself. If I hadn't been living in reality, it would have been much more devastating, because it would have been more of a shock. What's even weirder is that I'm actually kinda happy for them. Because to see a love like that is really beautiful. And I appreciate beauty.

But, like I said...don't get me wrong, it still hurts.